Thursday, June 5, 2008

An Impactful Loss

I've come to realise the importance of my brother after he got enlisted officially today. Maybe I've always used to take his presence for granted. Now that he's gone, I really miss him. It is definitely an impactful loss to my life. Let's see how:

  1. Nobody to have KFC buddy-meals with me
  2. Nobody for me to bully
  3. Nobody to piggy-back me when I want to be
  4. Nobody for me to laugh/tease at
  5. Nobody to buy me lunch/dinners
  6. Nobody to offer me to buy snacks when I'm hungry
  7. Nobody to discuss JT-related stuff with me
  8. Nobody to be my body guard when I come home at wee hours
  9. Nobody to help me pay my bills when I'm lazy to do so
  10. Nobody to care for me and ask what time I will be coming home tonight
Maybe it doesn't seem to be that impactful; but certainly the worst of the above is no.1. That is pretty sad. Truth be told, we always go for KFC buddy meals together whenever there are such offers. It isn't going to be the same if I have it with someone else. I really hope that he is doing okay at Tekong now. My parents and I were pretty worried when we did not hear from him after 930pm as we were briefed that the recruits will be able to call home after 930pm. The call came in at around 1015pm and our hearts were then soothed.

It was my 1st visit to Tekong today. I was a bit excited because it just seemed like another school field trip to me. LOL. There was a mini bus tour around the training centre for parents and close relatives to get a clear understanding of how the recruits manage their day-to-day living. The accomodation seemed pretty decent and the surrounding was green and proper. During the bus tour, there were people marching here and there to rehearse for their passing-out parade. Hehe, it was a bit hilarious when I first caught sight of the people marching around. Some parents and myself were laughing. *Oops. But hey, even when the soldiers marched on and saw us, they were sniggering too.

After the tour, we gathered at an auditorium where the enlistees took their oath and a Q&A session followed shortly. What really surprised me was that, my brother raised his right hand and popped a question in front of the audience. I was surprised because he actually had the guts to do so given his quiet nature. It was the last thing I'd ever expect of him in such situation. He was worried about not being able to pass the BMT and that he has to repeat BMT if he fails it. From that moment, I knew that he was worried. In fact, really worried. My parents and I were apprehensive of his negative thoughts towards BMT.

Oh well, it is a phase that every Singaporean male has to go through. Nothing can change that fact. I do hope he'll think more positively and perhaps channel his thoughts towards making the BMT period a more fruitful one for himself.

I can't wait for the 20th to arrive.

Posted by carrousel at 11:25 PM