Wednesday, June 25, 2008
on a recent nightmare haunting
I am feeling pretty tired now; but I am a little hesitant to turn in for the night. I've been having nightmares for the past few nights. Last night, I dreamt that I was under tremendous pressures working for Barclays on the contract job and that I collapsed due to extreme stress. A few nights ago, my mom tried to murder me in my dreams. I know it sounds hilarious; I laughed at the dream when I woke up from the dream. It was really scary because it felt so real. On the night I had the dream that my mom murdered me, it was raining and there was thunder and lightning. The dream felt so real because it was also raining with thunder and lightning in the dream.
I reckon that I must have watched too much of 法证先锋2. There were a few episodes that featured a serial killer whom preyed on handicapped victims because of some pyschological disorders. In my dream, my mom was the one who had pyschological problems. LOL. Which could well justified why she murdered me. When I told my mother about the dream, she told me to lock my doors during the night. LOL. Her sense of humor caught me there!
An explanation for the nightmare of tremendous pressures working at Barclays; I suppose I was thinking too much about the job. I've been worrying that I'll not be able to perform well. The reason is, if I do not even perform well on the contract position, they'll not recommend me to convert to permanent positions (if any) once my contract finishes. In the worst case scenario, they may even terminate me.
I am tired. Even if I have to suffer from the nightmares tonight, I resign to them.
Posted by carrousel at 1:44 AM
