Friday, August 8, 2008

I am finally settling myself down on the sofa; typing to let everyone know how I feel now. I just got home from work 20 minutes ago. I really felt like shit now. Yeap, you may have guessed it. I had a bad day at work. To begin with, the day did not start off well. I was 'caught' by the director of operations for taking the wrong elevator at the ORQ building. Honestly, I did not know that the last elevator labelled "ABN Amro" does not serve Barcap level 27 which I was supposed to go to. I entered the lift and then the director happened to be at the lobby. He went into the lift with me and told me that the lift does not go to level 27. I was fucking embarrassed?

He was not alone. He was with some other people from Barcap too. I wondered if they are some big shots. If they are, he must have felt awkward that he had to alert his own employee that she was taking the wrong lift. Somehow, with that incident, my gut feeling told me that it was going to be a bad start. It was indeed. Actually, I was feeling unwell from the period cramps and it was already affecting my mood negatively. With the elevator incident, it certainly did not help to make it better. You think that was all on my so-called bad day?

Nah. Not at all.

I was running the trades on the system queue and realised that I actually emailed a trade discrepancy to a wrong counterparty and the maturity date was on the day itself, 6th August. If I had not realised it, it would have been pretty problematic. I realised it in time and thank god, I got the counterparty to amend on their side. The incident really gave me a heart attack. I heard that one of my colleagues actually made a mistake when doing trade checks and matched one of the wrong trades. His erorr cost the company over 1K. You might think that 1K is a small amount to the company but I'd be feeling like shit if I were in his shoes.

Well, I think I really have got to be more alert when checking these trades. Caution, caution and more caution. I have no idea why I am becoming more and more paranoid lately too. Each time the supervisor comes and talks to my partner, I keep thinking that I must have done something wrong and that he is talking to my partner about it so that my partner could tell me. I did ask my partner if the supervisor did say anything about my work and he said no. I guess I shall just give him the benefit of doubt there. I hope the bad feelings I have now will go away in time. I really hope to face work happily and be able to perform well.

Hopefully I am gonna have a wonderful weekend with Mr Wu. I heard that his JC friends will be holding a belated birthday celebration for him at his place. Probably they will be playing some mahjong. I want to mahjong too. LOL. But I felt that my luck has not been very good though. I have no idea why, I have the unlucky feeling. *sighs*

Or is it just the paranoid side of me again?