Monday, January 19, 2009

So many things got to me... and I feel so little because of them.

Perhaps these things are nothing serious but I chose the hard way to handle them. At work, I am still adapting; it could be better but is that really up to me? It depends on how much these people are willing to befriend you. It is hard when you go into a team where cliques are present. Oh well, of course that depends on how well you can please people. That is something I really need to learn. There is a difference between sucking up to them and pleasing them. I will choose the latter way.

How? I don't know. I will manage somehow.... or I will learn somehow. Where relations are concerned, I think that my relations with some friends have been pretty strained... I shan't mention names but I know it inside me. Sometimes, I am reminded of the happy moments we used to play and laugh together. Now, I feel little because they're not around anymore... they're not even hanging by. The number has left.

I guess, we just have to live with the fact that friends come and go and I have to be easy on that. Then again, I often question myself if I've got any part to play in this. I would like to think so... sometimes, I just did not feel like taking the initiative. Grr... I am just hoping this will be over soon because I need to get out of this.

Just over the weekend, there was an unhappy incident at home. I was really unhappy with the way she treated me. I can sense favouritism though. Maybe I am being sensitive... but I highly doubt so. It is over and a past now. Why should I even talk about this again? Simply because it made me so unhappy!

I WANT TO GO SHOPPING!

Can't wait for my pay to be credited soon ;) Oh well, I've not gotten any clothes for the CNY. So what have I been doing? Hmm, I ended up buying tops for Mr Wu when I went shopping the past few times. Nothing for myself. I just couldn't find anything I like. I don't really like the idea of buying something for the sake of pacifying myself. That has happened to me countless times and... the cupboard is bursting because of that.


I don't want to end up shopping for a cupboard. There're so many places having sale and yet I can't find anything I like... this is infuriating!