Monday, April 6, 2009

Today seemed like a really bad day for everyone. The issue for my reconciliation pending since last Friday carried forward to today. The issue was just so complex and I was really lost. I stayed back till 2000 last friday because of the issue. My manager was discussing on the issue with another colleague. They left me out on this totally. It appeared to be so contradicting here. My manager told me that I was supposed to take charge of the reconciliation. I was thinking to myself, "How was I supposed to do so when you guys do not involve me in the discussion?" I attended the usual weekly meeting with the Head of FX Ops in London today and I panicked because I was in no good position to explain on the issue which caused more than a hundred breaks on the reconciliation.

Despite the fact that I prepared on explanation half an hour before the meeting, I said something wrong. Before the call was over, my manager chatted me and questioned me on what made me say that 'something' that was wrong. I was taken aback by this. She must have been in the conference call meeting as well in order to know what I said during the meeting. If that was the case, why did she not correct my words right away? I felt as though I've made a fool of myself. After the call, I simply felt like leaving the damn bloody office! No words could describe how terrible I felt after call.

I thought I'd have hurried to the ladies to take a breather after the call. I did not. That was my initial intention. Instead, I braced myself up and stayed on at my desk to complete a piling load of work. That was something which I was proud of.

On the bright side, I am glad that this week is a short one because it is good Friday this Friday! I'll be getting a longer weekend than normal working class because I am on leave on the coming Monday! Actually, I'm considering to cancel my leave though. I've no concrete plans on Monday yet. Mr Wu might not be able to keep me company and my mom could be working on Monday as well. What tempted me further to cancel the leave is the fact that the coming Monday is a holiday in London and there will not be any meeting. LOL~ yeap, why did all the meetings get cancelled when I am on leave?

Grr.

I've got a sudden urge to travel again... Ever since I came back from Batam, I've been wanting to get away again. LOL.

I can't wait for July to be here!