Monday, September 21, 2009

The extremely tired self of mine wanted to drop some words here before I hit the bed.

I was glad that I managed to knock off at 1700 on a public holiday. Things could have been worse. I'm trying to be more optimistic. In fact, trying very hard to be. Nic and I were an hour behind our targeted knock-off time! LOL. Wanted to go off at 1600 but a lot of issues to handle towards the end of the day. Ah well... at least I left the office before 1800!

It's gonna be another long day again tomorrow. I've got no idea if I can hold on. Was it the tiring weekend which drained me badly? I am just not young anymore. Feeling quite moody again... or in fact, all along?!
Don't know what is wrong with me. I am growing more suspicious of the intentions people have around me.

I hope I am just over-sensitive. Maybe I just need to pick up more people skills. I was quite upset with boyfriend over the weekend. I felt that the time we spent wasn't as happy as other weekends. The bad thing was that, he did not know why I got upset with him. Uhmm, to be honest, I could have controlled my emotions better.
Just didn't know why there was an outburst.

I hope it won't happen again. What would I be without him for the past 1.5 years? Have I become too over-reliant on him? I'm starting to get affected by the lousy work shift he has. Boredom finds me easily in the evenings after work; perhaps sadness sometimes.

Why does it seem to me that it's getting harder to stay happy?