Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Blunders made at work yesterday got blew up.

I knew that nothing would make me feel better. No amount of shopping can make me feel better (maybe).

These mistakes made me feel worthless at work. She will hate me and give me a hard time at work.

I'd trade anything to make up for these mistakes. Time to propose a control.

I will think hard.

The guilt is making me very unwell now. The only thing I am proud of myself today is that I managed to control my emotions well at work in face of these mistakes.

Met boyfriend up for dinner and he knew what happened. He tried to cheer me up; no words from his mouth could help. I wish I can just hug him and cry.

Will I lose sleep tonight? I hope not. I am extremely tired from a whole day of guilt.

I think I am better left alone at the moment.

Many bad consequences are crowding my mind.