Monday, December 14, 2009

Again, the feeling is here. I just don't feel like talking/seeing anyone.

Why? I must have a problem.

Work was ugly today. I know I am completely on my own. Nobody I could rely on or turn to. No colleagues I can call friends at all. I am envious of friends who have colleagues whom they can go out with after work or even on weekends. Why can't I have such colleagues? Most of them are just concerned with finishing their work by 1800 or even earlier. Manager organises team outings just because she is supposed to not because she wanted to.

I spent a good weekend with boyfriend and wished that we could have more time together. Am I becoming over-dependent on him? *SIGHS* Though he has always been coming over to my place over the past few weekends, I am just contented chilling out at home with him. We realised that it has been sometime since the last time we went out on the streets. Are we not spending enough quality time together? Maybe that's why I felt deprived.

I do think that we are talking less and sometimes communication breakdown happens between us.

Sometimes when I get unhappy from work and want to talk to someone badly, it's not easy to get boyfriend's attention. When I manage to get his attention over the weekend, I have more or less forgotten what I intend to tell him. I thought it'd be a good thing not bothering him with such trivial matters. Unfortunately, keeping all the unhappiness to myself troubles me a lot and I don't feel like socializing much at all.

HELP!

Where work is concerned, I am dragging myself to go work every morning. I don't know what else besides MONEY I am working for now.