Thursday, December 10, 2009

I've been surfing non-stop! All budget airlines are having pre-christmas promotions and I am once again so tempted to travel!

My mind is thinking so far ahead for July 2010 where my two weeks of block leave will come again. LOL. I know it sounds a little insane.

So many places I want to go but financial resources are limited. This really sucks, isn't it?

We work hard to enjoy the fruits of our labour but only come to realise that the enjoyment is in fact very short-lived. Boo!

I can't feel that Christmas is coming despite the fact that I do have some plans with friends.

Though I can't feel it, I still look forward to meeting my friends especially with Mei and Steph on the 18th.

It's a pity that boyfriend can't join in. Today was the first time of the week I saw him. It felt like we've not seen each other for ages. Time seemed to take an eternity to pass for me. I don't know why.. I felt sad when we met up for dinner earlier on. I've been very discouraged from work recently and yet seeing another person being so bothered by work doesn't exactly make me feel better. He went on to blabber about work and the people.

I thought my feelings were neglected and if our topics are revolving around work and Barcap people all the time, I didn't think the relationship will be a healthy one. Boyfriend promised to call me every night before I turn in. I know he wants to make sure he's not neglecting me.. that wasn't really what I needed actually. I don't want distract him from work and of course, I wouldn't want him to give up the job because of me as well. I want him to do well at work.

I'm especially sensitive to Barcap people and work now. It could be due to what happened earlier in the week.

I thought I had moved on. Apparently, I haven't since I am so upset about work. Why can't work life be more simple? Is it just a test of my patience and determination?

I had a lunch appointment with one of the ex-colleagues today and she left for SOC Gen for some FO position. She seemed happy in her current job. I am happy for her. Frankly, how many people out there are dying to get into FO?

She told me that the firm is still hiring. I wonder if I should give it a try. (extremely tempted)

Coincidentally, today marks my first official year with SOTS. Time flies. I reckon that a year is still not enough for me to pick up much.

I shall not succumb to temptation and try to stay on to this job for at least another year. I hope I can do so. Of course, if a better job opportunity comes along, I'll kiss current job goodbye! LOL. We all need to be practical.. and I'm sure anyone will think the same as me.

Flu isn't exactly getting any better. I was surprised when my manager showed concern for me today. She asked if I was feeling better and that I could go home and rest if I was still unwell. I thought that was rather scary. Haha... she must have gotten herself a date for Christmas :) ! That's the only reason I could think of. Oops, I'm just plain evil.

It's time for me to get some sleep and when I wake up, it'd be HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!