Friday, September 30, 2011

It has been HELL since I returned to work on Tuesday and I had been leaving office at least 8 or later everyday this week.

I wonder if there is anything wrong with me. Not picking up the momentum to work fast enough yet? Perhaps.

I was really stressed out at work today. Some nasty questions about trade booking were being thrown onto my face and I was at my wits' end. I did not know what to do...this time, my tolerance level for stress was being put to test. I was having stomach cramps the whole afternoon at my work desk and I was rather certain I was too stressed which caused the cramps.

I wish I had time to breathe. but not really. I believe the bank has overworked me badly.

Sometimes, I am very impressed with the amount of work I do in a day. I just feel like a fast processing machine. The huge amount of work is probably not the worst. What's worst was, I had to put up with the bad attitude given by the salespersons and traders. Obviously, they have a big problem because they do not appreciate the help I am giving them.

So much work to do and so many people to please.

I made some oversights in validating trades today. I do not deny it is my fault to overlook these booking errors, but in the first place, the errors were made by some trader. Not sure why, her mistake seemed like mine entirely. She called me up and asked for the reason why the error was not picked up.

I am tired of taking up blame for people.